The Notebook

For the Son of Man has come to seek and to save what was lost.  Luke 19:10

When I was in college, I had my life all mapped out! I was very careful to organize each and every detail. I had everything written out in a notebook including how many children I wanted, what color my house would be and what kind of job I would have.  According to my plan, I was to be married by 23 and be finished having babies by 30. I even had their names picked out, of course with alternates in case my future husband didn’t like my first choice. It was fool proof ... my happily ever after was all right there written in the notebook!   I was so organized…what could possibly go wrong. Before I knew it I was 25 and absolutely nothing written in my notebook was happening, in fact, there were quite a few things that had happened that I would have never considered putting in the notebook…things like the death of my brother, and losing my Mom to cancer…those were not in my plan!  I was melting inside and I remember feeling a little lost!

During this “lost season”, I went to visit my Grandma. A visit with Grandma Thelma always made things better! As we were sitting on her porch swing and she was trying once again to teach me how to crochet, tears started to fall down my cheeks into the yarn on my lap and Grandma gently took the things from my hands, knowing completely well that the tears were not due to my miserable attempt at crocheting.  A couple questions later, there I sat blubbering like a baby spilling the whole tale of the stupid notebook and all my foolish plans.  I distinctly remember telling her in the middle of my hissy fit that according to my plan, I was supposed to be half way done having babies by now but instead I was sitting on the front porch with her on a Friday night. I also told her that in the meantime I was quite sure all my eggs were rotting!  I told her I’d been so careful in my planning, I just didn’t understand what had gone so terribly wrong!

When I had finished, Grandma sweetly said, “I know the problem!" She always did, but her explanation wasn’t what I expected.  She didn’t mess around with her words…she cut right to the heart of the problem.  She said, “You need to throw that darn notebook of yours in the trash.” I looked at her in shock and she went on to say, “The problem with your notebook is that it’s your plan and that’s never going to work.”  She went on to lovingly remind me that everything happens for a reason, both the good and the bad, it’s all part of God’s plan whether we like it or not.  She told me to ask God to write the plan for me, she also assured me that He was a better planner than me and that I would indeed have a few good eggs left when I needed them!  Thank you Grandma!

That visit on the porch was like Jesus rounding up a lost lamb!  I had gotten so tangled up in trying to take care of myself I had forgotten that really was Gods job.  I still keep a notebook, but it’s a prayer journal.  I still write my lists and organize my plans in the notebook, but the big difference between the first notebook and the ones I write in now…these are the plans I ask God to bless if they are according to His will and strike down if they are not.  I often remind Him I’m pretty thick-headed so please be very clear with the directions because I don’t have Grandma to clear it up for me anymore. 
How could we possibly think that a God who loved us so much He would send His only Son to save us wouldn’t know better the plans for our life! 

​Let Him take over your plans…you won’t be disappointed!
 
A seed to plant:  Grab a piece of paper right now, and write down your plans for the week…then ask God to bless the list…invite Him to take charge of the list… and then stand back and see what He does with your week!

Blessings on your day!